Over the weekend, as I was lying in bed, tears started flowing down my cheeks. Surprisingly, they weren’t of sadness. They were of gratitude.
I was just reading the messages sent to me by people who heard about my situation and I found myself reading them over and over again. They made me feel better. Their words gave me strength. And that was when I started to wonder about those who didn’t have friends like I did. Those who’ve been isolated from the people who would have had the capacity to make them feel whole again.
That’s when it hit me. I have to make myself available to the victims of narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) abuse. Somebody has to tell them they’re not crazy. Somebody has to listen to their story and assure them that there’s still hope.
Can I possibly have stumbled upon my life purpose?
I don’t think it was ever an accident that these people with NPD keep showing up in my life. And I don’t think that the most recent turn of events that I talked about in my preceding blog was an accident either. It’s like the punctuation that ends the last sentence to that chapter in my life. It’s time to write a new chapter.
But…how do I start?
The most logical path I can think of is to become a licensed psychotherapist. I’ve been reading up on how to become a clinical psychologist. It’ll take me another 8 years, I think, to get a Ph.D. I’m seriously considering it now. It doesn’t matter if I’ll be in my mid 40’s by then. If God grants me a long life, I should still have a good 3 decades to help people out.
In the meantime, I’ll make myself available online. I may not be a licensed practitioner just yet, but I can guarantee more than 10,000 hours’ worth of experience being around narcissists. So, if you suspect that you’re a victim of NPD abuse and need a virtual friend to talk to, email me at amusingmusingsandwhatnot@gmail.com. Again, be fully aware that I am no licensed practitioner. I’m just here to lend an ear.
Talk to you soon.